Things just stayed stable

she pulled her hood up so that only a scraggle of hair
was peeking out, and her eyes and featured
were cast in a shadow
that she hoped
would make her look like she was higher on drugs than she was
or more intensely lost in what she was doing
who she was talking to
she felt like it did the trick
she felt like she was the centre of the room
where all the boys flocked
aimed future masturbation fantasies towards
“saved for later” said some dick
with shoulders too big for his head
things never got as fucked as she would like
or liked to imagine they would get
things just stayed stable
things just stayed ok